17.02.11 - Confessions of a pregnant woman

Lying down with a view to your unborn child in a hospital is a surreal feeling. Mesmerized by the images revealed in front of me, I could hardly speak. At that very moment I felt overjoyed and blessed. Delivery day is still a bit further away, but it feels closer for each day that passes by. And more real as I am starting to show and my tummy is growing bigger. It is amazing, really...
 
But sometimes, well most of the times these days actually, it all feels a bit tiring. Although it is frowned upon to be complaining about pregnancy and feeling sorry about oneself, I'm going to be so bold and do it anyway. I am well aware of that pregnancy is not a sickness and I do realize that a majority of women never suffer from long term nausea, dizziness, back pains, pelvic pains etc, but I do. I suppose I am one of those unlucky ones. The detailed version about how my days look like are reserved for my closest friends and family because I just don't want to bother people with it. However I can tell you that I can tear up every now and then just by the thought of everything. And NO, it really doesn't help reading stories about other women who has been through the same ordeal or has been in worse conditions because ironic enough, all the people you're acquainted with who has been pregnant or is pregnant is in tip-top shape. Some, professing, that they never felt healthier. Well good for them, honestly.

Then there is the guilt. Feeling guilty that I'm feeling this way, does that make sense?

In the midst of all the discomfort and pain, there is the constant worrying. For me it is an unknown world and I feel like I'm stumbling in the dark. There should be a detailed manual for every pain and movement you feel in your stomach like "Pregnancy for dummies". And what do I make of all the information that is available?? Making me aware of everything that can hurt in your body is good, but do they really need to sugarcoat everything. Just be straight forward and tell me how it really works. Yes it can be painful, exhausting and sometimes depressing.

I have been told to toughen up, to relax and not stress, to look on the bright side, to talk about my feelings, to take one day at a time...I wish I could press a fast forward button to delivery day. The day where a little part of you (hopefully not so negative part of you :-) ) is lying in your arms. The thought of that is what gets me through the day.

14.02.11 - All dressed up and nowhere to go

I did manage to get out last weekend. Even got dressed up a bit though my outing was cut short due to back pains and nausea.

The maternity dress from Topshop

With my cousin, aka lilsis, who is also preggy

04.02.11 - Unplugged

Adele, Robyn and Eva & The Heartmaker are my favorite artists at the moment. All three of them are performing in the nearest future. Unfortunately, due to my condition, I can't really plan anything that far ahead, meaning I can't buy the tickets now. I suppose I'll just have to enjoy their performances at home.

31.01.11 - Weekend getaway

I see I've messed up the date on my last post. Looks like I'm still back in 2010. Oh well it's difficult to get everything right these days.

Ok that was quite random, but my head works that way nowadays so excuse me for my messy post. There is unfortunately no change in my health. I'm still feeling really poor, but I guess I'm used to it now. It's kind of my everyday life. I know it's only temporarily and that's how I cope with it (well at least, that's how I'm coping with it today).

My friend Ingrid convinced me to go away with her and her boyfriend for for the weekend. They wanted to rent a lodge in the mountains and asked Vidar and I to come along. I was a bit hesitant, but I'm so glad that we went. Although I mostly stayed in and didn't join them for cross country skiing, it was still great to get away from the bed/sofa at home. The sofa in the lodging was quite comfortable as well and with a much better view. I'm totally exhausted today, but it was definitely well worth it.

From one of their outings

The view

The lodge

Ingrid, Vidar and Synnøve

The comfortable sofa

23.01.10 - Light up my life

It's been an exhausting week for me. Been back and forward to the doctor's for check ups and so on. Who would have thought that so many discomforts and pains could derive from pregnancy. Well I suppose I'm one of those unlucky ones.

Already by Wednesday, I was hysterical, nearly crying my eyes out. But thanks to some really amazing people in my life, I made it through. I'm so blessed to have great friends and a wonderful husband who will put up with me even when I'm at my lowest. Oh and thanks for the talks and the lovely gifts.

Lovely treats from Sara and Michael

Beautiful flowers from Katerina.

13.01.11 - Preggy lady

I'm lying in bed, which by the way has been my residence for the last couple of weeks. In the midst of my dizziness, nausea and feverish state (and a tiny bit of frustration), I'm trying to get the strength to write a couple of words. Don't get me wrong, I am soooo happy to be pregnant, but I wish I could actually go a day without the need to spend it in bed or the bathroom. Apparently it was suppose to get better after 12 weeks, but haven't seen the light in the tunnel yet. 

Instead of venting out, which I maybe already too late for, I opt for web shopping to cheer me up. Fashion can still be fun even with a little bump. Here are some of the items I'm ordering from Topshop:

Maternity Elastic dress

Maternity Moto Vintage Denim

Maternity Navy Breton Stripe Tunic

Sequin heart front top

Feeling better already :-) Well, it might be a while until my next post, but now you know why.

29.12.10 - 2010

In 2010:

I traveled!

Coffee break in between shopping in Liverpool

Roadtripping in Germany

I partyed in Las Vegas

Walked the streets of San Francisco

and a quick trip over the pond to my fave city in the world, London, but was too busy shopping that I didn't have time to take any pics.

I was into the glam and glittery scene:

Formed new friendships:

And ate a whole lotta of amazing food: